Okay. I don’t actually want to be here right now. I haven’t been writing regularly in several months and getting back into it is torture. I don’t know what to say, or if I truly have anything worth speaking about. What am I passionate about? What do I stand for? What do I believe in? These are all incredibly difficult questions that I simply do not have a complete answer to. So for now, I’m going to write freely about whatever is in my head, and hopefully over time I will discover a passion and a purpose for myself.
I don’t think I’m lost, I just haven’t truly found myself. I know to some that may seem like the same thing, but for me… it’s not.
Since I was a teenager, I would write poetry to express my emotions that I didn’t feel comfortable sharing with the world. It has been few and far between that I have written poetry since those years, but I still appreciate it and hope to go back to it someday.
I’ve been working through an incredible reading challenge for 2018. My initial new years resolution was to read 24 books in 2018. I’m approaching 50 now, which is nearly to my second goal of 52 books this year. I have seriously impressed myself on this front and I feel as though I am a better reader and communicator because of it.
My friend Alice and I started the Badassery Book Club (BBC for short) earlier this year and we are currently working through the Lord of the Rings trilogy by J. R. R. Tolkien (Will finish book 3 of 6 next week) and the All Souls Trilogy by Deborah Harkness. We’re currently on book two, Shadow of Night. Okay, I’m on book two. Alice is waiting until I’m halfway through to begin her reading, because she reads much faster than I do! After these trilogies, we have another two part book pairing planned, and then I don’t know what else. We will decide once we get closer to the time.
My other New Years resolution is simply this, writing. I have faltered a lot this year, but happy to start getting back into writing, and blogging my thoughts. If you’ve made it this far, HI! You’re the best.
One other major things going on in life right now is that my husband Steve and I are working to pay off all of our debt (we have plans beyond that that include both Europe, and adoption children… in that order). We have both picked up second jobs outside of our full-time work. We’re delivering pizza three nights a week. It is harder than I imagined it would be.
I cannot begin to express how utterly tired I am all the time. ALL. THE. TIME!
Kaylee (dog) and Inara (cat) get along great. Inara will be a year next month and in November, Kaylee will be two. Having animals has been challenging and so emotionally rewarding. I’m excited for the mini-humans next!
Until next time,
PS. I’ve totally started watching Doctor Who (for the first time in my life)!
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